Teach me how to love you after what you've done..

If you live to hate,

You'll never learn how to love.

I keep telling myself not to hate. But to be honest, I just can't lie to what I feel. I'm now trapped between. I seriously can't describe how I feel in words. Sad, disappointed, mad. It is really hard for me to understand. How should I feel if those who I think my real friends are those who suddenly left me without saying a word?

What is on my mind right now is: This life and this earth are so cruel. Some people are loyal, some are just connected and some others just fake.

Dear someone, please teach me how to love you after what you've done..